Do you ever wish we could all go back into lockdown?
This is a debatable take—even within myself—but I keep thinking about lockdown, 5 years ago, and how different life felt then. I moved back in with my parents for the majority of it and life for me was mainly a routine of wake up, exercise, eat, work, relax, sleep. We were very fortunate to be somewhere with enough space for everyone to spread out and not get on each other's nerves, and I really just miss how simple everything felt. I didn't have to feel like I wasn't progressing my career, my relationships, myself. Life was just on pause.
For the last 6 months I've felt like I have no control over my life. I still work out, I see my friends, I go to work, but it's as if I'm operating purely on a day-to-day basis. I have no capacity (or desire) to plan stuff weeks or months ahead and it feels like all the routines I'd built—routines which carried me through lockdown and supported me in feeling like a functional human being—have just...vanished?
I want to go back. I want to put life on pause again, just for a little bit, so I can sort myself out and get everything back to normal. Just for a little bit.