on writing
I want to write more. At least, I think I do. I feel like being able to coherently express your thoughts and opinions is an important skill, and something that I want to practise. I want it to help me reinforce and organise my opinions, so I don't just float through life without a set of values or desires.
So what are the barriers to entry for me? I think it's two things:
What if people read my writing? I have a personal website that would be the perfect place for a blog page. I could post to my heart's content, in full control of words I say and the way it looks. But what if someone sees it? What if someone reads what I said?? I think I have this innate fear that people I know will read something personal I wrote and suddenly start thinking less of me? It's why I can only bring myself to write vaguely technical, "portfolio site" posts that never showcase who I am as a person.
What if I don't have anything I want to say? This is another big one for me. I don't feel like the sort of highly-opinionated person who would keep a blog. I don't particularly know if I care enough about stuff to open up a new tab and spend 10-20 minutes speaking about it. What's the point? What's the benefit?
I think tackling the "anonymity" side of the equation might solve both of these things. I'm hoping I'll feel more inclined to post stuff if I can do it from behind a curtain. I also don't think I'll care as much about only publishing "high value" works if I know people can't attach them to my personal worth.
So let's see.